Social media can be great. In many ways Instagram and Facebook helped me through various moments in motherhood by connecting with other parents. However, the internet is not just pink clouds and fluffy. It has a serious dark side in many ways and we, the regular users, lack any real insight. I don’t necessarily live in fear, but I don’t want to feed this darkness either. So, I deleted pretty much everyone from my Instagram. I’ll tell you why.
It wasn’t always great for my mental health
Seeing all these picture perfect moments, with picture perfect moms who have picture perfect bodies did sometimes fuck with my brain. I know not everything on Instagram is real, but I still found myself wondering why I wasn’t like that on more than one occasion. It’s not that I am unhappy about my life or myself. It just created this weird kind of jealousy that made me feel like my content was not good enough to post on the world wide web. I know this might sound either really foolish, self-conscious or maybe gullible to you. And maybe I am. I do know that following all these people did affect me negatively in some way. So off they went.
It sometimes felt like a massive competition
More than once my co-bloggers on Instagram and I discussed the well known Instagram algorithm, did we try and use pods, did I post content I didn’t even feel like posting and was it not enough. “Competing” with accounts who had 20k+ followers and trying to get my content in between made me feel so, so tired of the whole platform. At one point I was so focussed on getting as much likes and followers as possible and I kept feeling like it was never enough..It took the entire joy from the platform away. I was so focused on the algorithm that I didn’t even have the conversations for which I loved Instagram. And for what? To say I’m one of the cool kids? An “influencer”? Finding as much collaborations as possible? It was not my jam and I knew it. I was sick and tired of feeling like I was on the failing end of a popularity contest, scrolling through the same content over and over (hello brandreps!) en felt like every single user was PR-micromanaging their account. At one point I even wanted to delete the entire thing. Instagram like this just wasn’t for me.
With just under 500 followers left, only following people I actually want to follow instead for the sake of following back I feel so much better. I see content I want to see, I share my posts comfortably and I engage in conversations I actually like. This certainly lowers the chance of any collaboration and it might make me look like an unpopular noob. But I don’t care (anymore). Feeling good above popularity. If you think completely different, that’s okay too! In the end all I want to say: Stay safe, stay happy and happy gramming!